I am not normally one to take up a lot of time setting new years resolutions. I HATE failing and I tend to set unrealistic/unattainable goals for myself – you can see how those two things don’t mix well together. This year though I want to reflect a bit on the last year and set some priorities for myself for the upcoming months.
2018 was not my year. I started off the year ambitious, taking on way too much and eventually burned myself out. Life spiraled slowly from there.
I started sinking into one of the worst depressions I’ve had in my lifetime. I do not feel that I am out of it completely yet, but I am definitely getting there. I struggled to stay connected to my support system, my relationship was very rocky, I stopped getting out of bed except to go to work and let my dog out. After having two years clean from drugs and alcohol I relapsed and began using IV heroin again. I lost myself. It was a painful year.
November I detoxed and began taking my psychiatric medications again. It has been about seven weeks now and although I don’t feel that this mix is working I plan to continue taking them until the next time I see my psychiatrist. I tend to start thinking I can handle everything on my own.. I’ll stop taking meds, stop reaching out for help from friends and family, quit counseling, etc. I’m sure you can guess what the end result usually is.
Goals for the upcoming year:
- Write every day (whether it’s a blog post, journaling, or working on my memoir
- Continue exercising daily (this definitely helps my mood)
- Less isolation, more connection
- Get outside – I have always loved the outdoors (hiking, kayaking, running, swimming) but did not do a whole lot of it over the last year
- Read 52 books (1 per week at least) and write book reviews/recommendations on my blog if and when they are related to mental health.
That’s all I’ve got for now. I do not want to overwhelm myself with tons of goals so I’m keeping my list short. What are your goals for the new year?? Comment below or send me an email, I would love to connect.